Lying Down Idolling

Type "lightheadedness" into google and you'll find a forum where all these people in their thirties discuss their sudden-onset dizziness. Most of them just woke up one day with dizzy feelings. Most of them seem to have stress or anxiety disorders, some diagnosed, some not. I have been experiencing some lightheadedness, not really dizziness, not to the point of feeling nauseous or about to faint, but as if my brain is rising up in my head, as if I am travelling quickly over a dip in the road. I have no sensation of imbalance, but sometimes it gets so strong that I feel I might have a sight blackout. I've been treated for it with anti-nausea pills (which I didn't take as I didn't feel nauseous), anti-dizziness pills, which didn't really work, and B vitamins. I intended to have a blood test at the time but was waylaid by the triage nurse and doctor. At the time I had low blood pressure, which I attributed to having fasted all night and then waiting too long before going in for the test. So I will be going back in to insist on bloodwork.

However I have a nagging suspicion it is a combination of stress, bad sleeping patterns and bad nutrition. Lately I have put on quite a bit of weight over a six month period, after maintaining a lighter weight for over 5 years. Sedentary? Yes. Sleepless? Yes. Stimulated? Overly. Stressed? Although not working, and although I seem quite laidback, I am constantly worried and anxious, about other people, and time not spent being healthy and purposeful. Half of it is guilt, and half of it exhaustion - some from bad lifestyle habits, and some residual exhaustion from infant and toddler-raising.

Other possibilities: anaemia (which I had as a child), inner ear problems, unknown reaction to food or allergens, or toxic elements in my habitat.

I just got on the elliptical machine after a few months avoiding it. While I was on, no lightheadedness. Interesting. Whereas while I am at the desk, at my laptop or sitting up but "relaxing"... dizzy, dizzy!

So I have decided I need to hunker down and change my habits a little. Food - I have just started a programme which I love, though the last few days have been a little tough. I'll report back within a month about it, so we'll see how that goes. Sleep - getting there. I sometimes get very tired in the afternoon and can't help snoozing. But I don't like to do that because it affects my nighttime sleep. I used to need at least 8 hours a night. But lately, even if I am tired, I cant seem to shut off. I end up getting about 4 hours and cutting short my sleep to take the kids to school. And I can't shut off because I'm an internet junkie - facebook, youtube, twitter - and most of the time, I'm just refreshing the pages looking for new updates. How sick and sad is that? I have been trying to read instead, but my old favourite pastime seems to lack its usual lustre, and I blame the instantaneousness of the internet. Reading seems like too much hard work, OMG I have turned into an idiot! I AM that person I used to look down on!

It's been a month of lightheadedness and I am going to track any developments here. Meantime - Idol!

My sentiments remain the same. Adam Lambert should win and now I am bored of the whole process and feel like we are basically going through the motions just to get to that point where he wins. However, as usual, you can't trust the viewers to have any taste at all, in fact, I am sure there is a large section of the audience that thinks he is way too gay or talented for his own good.

This week, I did enjoy Scott, surprisingly, but not enough to feel like he should be top three. Anoop was annoying. Kris, though good, seemed forgettable. I don't even remember seeing him before tonight's performance. Still like Danny, but he's no Adam. I am liking Megan more but man that song was pretty crap. Why are all these young kids singing songs chosen from a hippy bohemian hobo trash dumpster person? I like Bob Marley, but that song was oatmeal compared to his other zingers. Lil rounds is probably the next most talented after Adam, but she is sinking into the grey.

Sigh. Seems like the world is going grey all over. And over-cluttered. And filled with angry people I get angry over.

Someone give me a lifetime of spa massages!?

C

Idol Schmidol

Feeling quite disenchanted by the whole Idol experience. No one seems to really stand out except for Adam Lambert, and he seems to be getting a little over the top - though I wonder if the general dissatisfaction I seem to find with everything Idol is what brings this about.

With hindsight, I am feeling annoyed by the changes in the format. One, the new judge, and two, the new extra rounds of elimination to draw out the viewing "pleasure" or torture as it may be. I feel a little used when I think about the latter. Just announce the top 12 and be done with it! Kara started out so well, but since they got into Hollywood, her judgments seem to be more about saying the right thing the right way. A little like how Paula always wants to say the nice thing, even when the performance was a dog's dinner of a show. They seem to be fuelling each other's mini-performances. Too much time spent on them - I want to see Simon rant! (Hi, Simon!)

Since picking up Ryan Seacrest on Twitter, I am liking him more and more. I am rethinking my prior rants on Seapuff. It seems the nice guy with the sly undertone is, if not a put on, then not the byproduct of a mean or unintelligent creature, as I once believed.

I am also feeling a little disappointed with the voting system, seeing as one of my faves, Alexis, was voted off last night. However, the judges' decision not to "save" her, a new feature which I find really annoying and stress-inducing, was quite right if you were to judge purely on her performance. Sure, she had a bad night, but then what about Scott the Blind Guy who really can't sing? He's obviously there on the whole popularity thing. Or worse, pity.

There's better TV in Lost, but that only happens once a week and for me, only over the net. I've been spnding a lot of time on youtube, catching up with British programmes I missed after returning home from Oz. Never Mind the Buzzcocks, Have I Got New For You, Mock The Week, QI with Stephen Fry et al. Mark Lamarr, come back to television!

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In other news, we have started a new shoot for hubby boo's talk show, due out sometime in April / May. Head on over to looksout for a picture and further picture updates in the future.

Lovey, C

Idolling

Tonight's theme, the BeGloved One, Michael Jackson.

My favourite is still over-the-top Adam Lambert, so self-assured and certain. But do the 'Mericans like him? I also like Alexis Grace and Danny Gokey, and the rest are pretty much dross to me. Don't necessarily think the latter two gave the best performances tonight, but I still like 'em. Gokey better stop doing the hokey-pokey.



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Anoop and Jorge seem to stick in my mind, but in particular with Jorge, I think it's because Paula Judge and Kara Judge seem to think he can't express himself in English. As Simon put it, "that's patronising", and gosh, I wish they would stop harping on about his bloody accent. He is obviously conversant in English, does it matter how he speaks? They can't seem to make the mental leap past his ethnic background, to actually take in the fact that he is responding to them in Engerlish. Sheesh.

Someone check who's styling these poor kids!

Nice to see Kara Judge and Paula Judge's sentimentalism and earnestness haven't rubbed off on you, Simon baby. See you next week, cuddles.

C

Back To Life

Life begins again with the new season of American Idol.

Welcome back, Simon, I missed you. I have reserved your favourite spot on the tv for our biweekly dates.

They're now in Hollywood going through the crap stage. This part of the season is the part I find uncomfortable to watch. They're all put through the wringer and sometimes get eliminated, not because of their talent, but because of how they handled the pressure: not very well. It's hard to watch humanity disappearing, but every now and then, gorgeous souls bubble up and remind me that good people are everywhere! I especially adored love-butterfly Rose, who after a terrible night, turned to the only singer who got through and gave her a congratulatory hug, despite losing out.

THankfully the judges tend to weed out the nasty ones along with the poor victims.

I have some favourites already, and hope they get through to the next round.

Adam Lambert - bring it on girl! If you don't make it on Idol, you can make it on Broadway, or at least a cabaret speakeasy. With a little less flamboyance, emo rock! The world is at your feet!

David Osmond. Yes. O-s-m-o-n-d. Hope he doesn't turn out to be a dick or crazy or something.

Jorge Bandana Banana Man. Patrecia Lewis Roman. I loved Rose, lovebutterflygirl, but she is definitely out.

Till next time~C